What She Would Regret More Than Anything In Those Days Was Her Inability To Write More. That Short Coming Would Allow Her To Lose Those Days And Disappear In A Fate Worse Than Memory. In A Place More Desolate Then The Past
R.EYE.P. So Much Talent. So Many Lyrical Displays Of Amazingness To Reference. I Gravitated Towards Hay Fever For This Post. It Just Feels So Appropriate. On The Surface This Song Resonated. It Felt Like A Song About Self Loathing, Failure, The General Shittiness Of Feeling Like You’ve Let Someone Down, Been Let Down, Forced To Let Go. (Relatable) When I Got Into The Lyrics And Broke Into The Theme Of The Song I Was Moved Beyond Words. It’s A Song About Loss, Specifically The Loss Of A Four Legged Companion. (Cue Tears For Days). Its Poignant And Beautiful. Written With So Much Pain And Perspective From Both Sides Of The Loss. It’s Heartfelt And So Well Crafted That You Can Feel It For Yourself; For Any Loss You May Experience Or Have Experienced.
For The Last 12 Years October Has Been A Conflicted Month For Me; Experiencing And Celebrating Death & Life. October Is Marked For Giving And Taking Away The Two Most Important People In My Life. Learning That The Author That Penned This Also Passed This Month I Was Flooded With Emotion To Write This. Sharing So Much, Triggered By My Desire To Pay Tribute, It Feels Silly. I Know It Doesn’t Matter To Anyone Else But It Matters To Me.
When You Lose Someone You Lose A Part Of Yourself. Despite Losing That Part Of You, You Are Left With Their Presence Within You. You Are Forever Changed.
Now That I’ve Experienced The Loss Of My Four Legged Loves, This All Resonates So Much More.
♪ Y si ya tengo el agua que me da la lluvia
Si conozco lo grande que me da el cielo.
Si ya tengo lo oscuro que me da la noche
Si entiendo lo que pasa cuando arde el fuego
Si se abren los caminos cuando hay estrellaz.
Si puedo vivir por lo que cae al suelo
Si no me falta la esperanza gracias a la mañana.
YO NO NECESITO PODER ♫
Woke Up, Over Slept, So Much For Starting The Day With No Regrets…
Ghosts Plague. Good Music. Tune Tuesday.
♫ You did what you did, now you do what you do.
You’re at where you at when you walk in them shoes.
Did you come to front, or did you come to fight?
Well maybe I’m here just to love my life.
Till they cut the price and I’m going bump in the night.
Gotta get up, get out, and do something right.
Walk, talk, sleep, breath, be
Live, give, work, hurt
Like you! ♪
Finally Friday. Enjoy This Weather. Loving This Track From Beginning To End. J.A.
♫ Please don’t rain on my parade
The falling from the sky just remind of the days
When you was crying for attention
I ignored it as a phase
Until you couldn’t take the tension
Now I wish you would have stayed
Walking through the smoke and mirrors, I’m burdened, you burning bridges
Memories fading faded it help you not to remember
The trials and tribulations, eyes red from crying
The perfect way to disguise it you was blinded by our fate
Please don’t rain on my parade because this float was built for you
Kinda hard to chase you down when you floating through the room
All you wanted was the truth and all I wanted was my way
Regardless how I word the phrase all you hear me say is…♪
Change is not about becoming a different person, “a better person,” by negating the nature of who and what we are. When we are born, at our core, we are who we are going to be eternally. Of course circumstance and experience will alter our state but our essence will remain unchanged. Through the conditions of our lives we demonstrate who we are. What we are capable of in the light and in the dark of ourselves. For this reason, change is not about denouncing the aspects of ourselves we don’t like and eliminating this, “the negative,” in our character. Change will result by embracing our faults, our vices and accepting who and what we really are. Only then can we temper our weaknesses and grow our strengths. Only then can we be better.
“You have to look. Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That’s the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won’t make time stand still.”—Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
♫ I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can’t be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I’ll let go too
‘Cause no one’s hurt me more than you
And no one ever will ♪
“Watch your thoughts for they become words
Watch your words for they become actions
Watch your actions for they become character
Watch your character for it becomes your destiny
What we think we become.”—Origin Unclear. Cited by Paulo Coelho in The Manuscript Found In Accra
“Emily: What do you do if someone you love lets you down, really fucks you over?
Thomas: You must try and stop loving them.
Emily: And is that possible?
Thomas: … No, I don’t think so”—Emily & Thomas, Skins UK, Series 3-4